thinking ... for some reason i cant stop ... about you

my brain just wont shutup its really annoying any time i think about anything that remotaly resembles something about him my brain goes straight to him .... and when someone says his name and im not expecting it i think omg where and my heart beats faster and my brain shuts down and it takes me a good 2 minunets to reset

how sad

ok this is soooo sad i mean common really ? has NO one read any of my posts? i know at least 5 people have but i dont ever get any comments do you lovely people ever think ? or have any thoughts ? oh well what ever its fine i dont update that offten anyways

take your own advice

mike broke up with me its been almost 2 weeks now and I'm starting no get better but its not easy i spent 10 months with this fool almost 11months and he doesn't have the patience to wait 3 separate week throughout the summer for me while my family drags me on vacation vacations .... some of which i like and some of which i do not
guys are easy on the eyes but hard on the heart one of my friends said that if heartache could move mountains there wouldn't be any ( in away shes right ) the pain that comes from a broken heart is a lot and i recently experienced this

I'm horrible at this there is probably no one on the planet worse at this than me .... i give great advice about relationships and ALL my friends come to me when they need someone to talk to ... but the thing is that when the things there asking me my advice on happen to me i get stupid honestly i do .... remember my 9 break up rules for girls??? yeah well if you don't there here again in italics

1) never ever show him him that he hurt you (its just asking for trouble and besides you don't want to give him any credit for something so wrong)

2) never ever beg him to come back to you (why would you belittle your self like that its just wrong)

3) don't look back don't let your thoughts of "well maybe if i" ... or "only if i" ... over power your self respect (you didn't do anything wrong its all him girl stand your ground)

4) when he is around act like every thing is OK (if you need to pretend) show him you have fun with out him (show him you don't need him)

5) every girl is entitled to there night out, grab your best buddies, your favorite movie, your favorite foods and goof off

6) for at least a week you are not aloud to talk, text, call, email, pass notes, message, send letters, talk to there parents (there not going to help you get back together with him) or any other type of communication with him is a no no ...if he initiates any of the above you can respond but make it brief and do not say anything you would regret later and end the conversation asap (if you need help I'm sure your friends would be happy to help you out)

7)friends friends friends its about you and them take time to get closer to them

8) check out the gene pool go to a party or the mall and boy shop (but only after you are OK you don't want to do some thing stupid)

9) after 2 weeks to a month at the least.... talk to him about something funny ... and flirt with him show him what he lost and cant have back (strut your stuff girl its you, your back and in the game)

here's what i did

1) this is SO hard girls i don't know how i actually did it
2) i would never beg
3)he told me it was my fault and i believed him ... i was stupid i did nothing wrong if he cannot accept the fact that my life is full of vacations then forget him
4)when this happens i will act like I'm OK ..because if i keep telling myself i am then i will be
5)done and was fun
6) this is where failed .. couldn't stop talking to him its all i wanted and for a while it made the pain better but I'm done with this
7) there my life now
8) flirting feels good now I'm free again and can do what ever i want ( with in certain boundaries
9)didn't wait a week .... but I'm starting now

girls my advice works it does I'm just not good at taking it my self but don't worry I'm working on it