later today for the 3rd time

OK so I'm online obviously but my parents have bocked like every dam cite there is no playlist no facebook no myspace no utube even my e=mail sites thank god they dint know about my blog i think i would freak if i couldn't get my thoughts out i mean it was killing me when i got home from school and had to wait till 6 to be able to get on ( o yeah that's something else the Internet doesn't work till 600pm they want to monitor what cites I'm on )...wow I'm surprised at how much I'm blogging usually i cant get this much typing done in a sitting let alone in one day Ive been on this blog 3 times today ...dam this stuff is addicting well at least its not a drug (lol)
OK so now into the juicy stuff ... i have a boyfriend shocker( no really it is I'm not the kinda girl every Guy wants to date ) but I'm still in love with my best friend (who moved ) he was so sweet to me he had a great personality was nice but not afraid to hurt my feelings b/c he knew that i would understand he also treated me like shit sometimes not like he was the superior being (that is so cliche)but like i was a friend who would leave on a moments notice (he had attachment issues like me)even throw he knew i would never do that. he never knew i liked him that way i was in love with him and that was 3 years ago and i still love him in no its UN healthy but i do ..but also my current boy friend is sweet to but he's clingy and not what u would say were in my normal standards ( I'm not a snob people i do looks but only after i like there personality first that's more important to me )but I'm now kinda starting to not like him as much as i use to and i don't want to hurt his feelings especially since he told me he loves me (gag help!!!) ...and I'm normally a happy person but I've been a little depressed lately and I'm tiered of the drama i just want to get a b average and learn to drive o well we cant have everything we want

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